bitter disappointment

Although I’m not interested in MLB at all, I had a dream of the Mariners’ Ichiro Suzuki the other night. Personally, I don’t like him because he’s exhorting something pompously every time I see him on TV. But in my dream, I won a prize of spending a day with him and unwillingly met him. As the day went on, I began to have fun. Being with him got merrier and happier, and eventually I shouted I’ve never been this happy in my life! I wished strongly that this moment would last forever while clinging to his arm. When the day was over and the time to say goodbye came, he said he would get in touch with me on his next visit to Japan. Out of curiosity, I asked him what the chances of his calling me were, feeling sure that he would say 100 percent since he looked happy with me as well all day long. But, his answer was 30 percent. I was surprised at the unexpectedly low odds. I felt so disappointed I had only a 30-percent chance to have such a great time like today. And, I woke up.

   I sprang to a sitting position on the bed, as I was shocked it was a dream, not a reality. Now that it was a dream, the chance of repeating the wonderful day had dropped from 30 percent to zero. Amid bitter disappointment, I was also disappointed at myself. In the dream, I received VIP treatment everywhere I went with Ichiro. He appeared as a symbol of fame and fortune, and I physically clung to his arm. I boast that I’ve got over the lust for fame and fortune long before. If so, why was I extremely happy in the dream…?

Episode From Surviving in Japan / Hidemi Woods

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Mt. Fuji

Mt. Fuji is regarded as a symbol of good luck.
Looking out the window of my apartment, I
can barely see the top of Mt. Fuji far away
after the leaves fall off from the trees nearby.
It’s a season I can see it, but I haven’t been
able to find it this year where it’s supposed to
be. My partner told me that he has seen it for
some time. I looked and looked for the unique
shape of Mt. Fuji which was hardly overlooked.
Then I noticed that the branches of the trees
near my apartment had stretched upward.
They block Mt. Fuji at my eye level but not at
my partner’s who is much taller than I am. No
matter how hard I jump, I can’t see the top.
I am too short for good luck…

Episode From Surviving in Japan / Hidemi Woods

Audiobook : Japanese Dream by Hidemi Woods On Sale at online stores or apps. Apple, Audible, Google Play, Nook Audiobooks,  43 available distributors in total